the school holidays are over and if you ask me, i'll tell you that i'm utterly disappointed... with myself, with him especially. was on leave for so many days so i thought he'll suggest us going out somewhere but yet everyday he's glued to the television!. Please for goodness sake, it's not everyday that i end my lessons at 6pm and off on wed and weekends. instead of making good use of the time, he can spend it on mahjong and mahjong and still mahjong! UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED!!!!

the feeling that he's avoiding me is getting so strong that i can't stand it anymore.... Is he trying to hide something from me? i wish that i'm thinking too much!

getting married is supposed to be such a wonderful thing.... it is... in the first few months and after that every true colours are shown!!! frankly speakly, not too sure if i can handle this again. it's like the history repeating itself..... and i'm like doing the same things i was doing many years back.... tired if you ask me... mentally!!!