Solar eclipse....

i woke up early to watch the eclipse but the rain ruined everything... was actually looking forward to another thing but it did not happen either...what a way to start a day..
there's a family retreat coming up in Aug to KL and Genting but i badly need a break now cos i think i am going to explode with so many happenings recently.
i've been bottling up all my disappointments and unhappiness all this while that i am no longer sure how long i am going to last. actually thinking of going back to see my doc again, guess he must be real disappointed to see me again. what to do? i just can't manage my stress and emotional mood swing well.
this weekend is gone again, still thought of spending some time with him cos we really didn't spend much weekends together recently as he's been travelling to Kl for business trip but haiz... this weekend there's a travel fair. guess i have to find my own programme again. sick and tired doing so cos i reminds me of how i spend my weekends alone too many years ago. will i end up in the same situation like many years ago? hopefully no la.

A Disappointing weekend....

this weekend is very eventful and disappointing too. Had a bit of dispute with one of my good pal and was disappointed with the way she's dealing with it. then followed by a family picnic at Changi Beach. it was great to see almost all the family member especially Bel and the two adorable girls. As usual, 'she' was like a princess, sitting there and waiting for the 'slave' to serve...

mY diLemMa.....

my husband's company started a new office in KL and he was expected to be up there pretty often, each time will have to stay there for at least a couple of days to even a week.... felt pretty lonely when he was not around last weekend... and the worst is he had to be there almost every weekend as weekdays he needs to be in Singapore office to settle his work...
actually i was very reluctant for him to go although i know it is his job, but why some of his colleagues can simply said they have families that they need to spend time with over the weekend yet why he can't... on the other hand, as i know it is his job and in order not to let him get caught between me and his career, i told him to go ahead. Stupid right? yes i know....
maybe to him independent gal...
have not been sleeping well those days when he was not around as i have to on the bedroom lights when i sleep. i have phobia of darkness when i am alone... guess will have such nights pretty often from now on.... Haizzzz